-crushed.-

This is going to be an EMO post.

For those who read this, especially my classmates, i want to tell

 you all this :

i'm fine. I'm OH-KAY. You all don't have to matter about this.

It's really foolish. So don't read if you don't want to. THANKYOU. :)

Love has made me seen lots of things of nature. They can be selfish.

Like this banana i picked, it has a deep scratch. Yet i don't even bother to eat it and pushed it to my dad.

It's wound has reminded me about the hurt he inflicted on me. He's so selfish. Maybe i'm just presuming, but i want to give up now rather than to be devastated to read the rumors on newspapers/magazines about them dating. It would really then feel weird.

The wound is deep and visible. I seem so stressed out liking him. He's so far. Maybe someone said was right. That would he know of my existence on this earth? He's so far yet pretty near.

However, would he even know?

When i looked at this banana, Love has made me realised the fact that he had already done great damage to me, to my soul. Yet i haven't noticed anything about it. Same here, the whole bunch of bananas had been hanging there, somewhere that i had been walking past many times yet i failed to notice the wound/scar on it. It feels really strange. My heart sank again when i read and found out that they're going to film a show together again, and its also a love show. What does this mean? Tell me.

But since i don't want to be held in suspense, i decided to give up on this no-hope love relationship. This shouldn't have started in the first place. It had been so wrong in the first place. For all i know now is that i have already given up on him.

It's so frustrating to face the fact that he's so far from me. Thousands of kilometres away.

7 hours of flight. Yes, that's far.

I am happy with the fact that my love for you have survived till today. Actually, its just a few months, but you've given me lots of fond memories that is enough to last me a lifetime.

I have given up completely on you, but not on admiration. I've often wondered to myself if you would ever come and visit my school. That's so impossible yet so possible in your country. Maybe that's the difference between us.

Love has made me seen the worst of human nature and the best of human nature. How evil can human nature get and How romantic can human nature be. It's pleasant to witness romantic relationships.

I've lived my life so far, in bliss and happiness. I think i'm fortunate enough already. I hope i won't ask for more. (:

Yeah lo, so EMO. HOW CAN I GET SO UPSET OVER HIM?

HAHA. that's weird. >B

what's remaining are just debris of love you have left behind.

crushed and stepped over and over again.