heated argument.

Having a heated argument with my mother.
She's so totally unreasonable.
Sms-ed her about my LEVI's jeans.
Told her i wanted to buy 2 because 2 for 199.90.
She said no, asked my brother if he wants to buy.
I was damn angry. If he buys another one, he has 3.
Okay, so i understood about the fact that i'm still growing and maybe he doesn't grow too much already. So it would be a waste of money if i cannot fit into that pair of jeans anymore when i grow.
So fine. I accepted that. But was still quite grudge-y over it.
Gotten over it.
Told my mother that i realised that i don't have enough tees/tops.
'The whole cupboard is filled with your clothes. Not enough clothes then don't wear, don't go out lor.'
walao, ehh. Please. I'm sharing the cupboard with sister ok. Not as if i occupy all the space right?
My clothes don't even fill half of the cupboard uhhs. [effing shit.]
I would rather talk to my SHIT than her.
Even my SHIT is more worth talking to than her.
Then this continued on and on and on.
'You didn't even buy me a jeans when i was young.'
THIS IS TRUE!
she never bought me a jeans. The jeans i wore was what my cousin gave me.
Hand-me-down jeans.
I accepted it because at that time, i was skinny and nothing fits me.
HELLO. but i'm a grown up ok.
I ought to have my own jeans right.
Just One that costs you 129.90$ and you are there screaming and yelling. At. Me.
Can you not think about the disadvantages of me growing and not able to wear it?
Why not think about if i needed it?
Yes, i can tell you confidently that i needed it.
I can wear it for trainings right? No need to wear shorts everytime right?
Even so, i've only 3 pairs of shorts.
Imagine how pathetic.
-.-
I can also wear to Perth right? I don't have to wear a loose pair of straight cut there right?
Did all these crossed your mind?
No. You only thought of the wastage of money when i grow bigger.
You just didn't think about this.
I never own a pair of jeans before.
Those are what my cousin gave me.
Think about it.

Yes. I'm pretty sorry about just now. I slammed the car door.
I didn't know why i did that. Maybe because of the sacarsm KOR made.
He's just so smug about buying another jeans.

i want to sleep badly.
i miss him so badly.
i want him so badly.
i wanna drown everything.
I don't want to hear the scoldings anymore.
In truth, i am tired to fight with her.
It's just so tiring.
For what i've known, i didn't remember a single thing that she done for me.
I dunno why. I just can't remember.

For one thing that i'm sure of,
i just felt super weird.
i knew i missed him.
i'm trying my very best to forget about him.
Maybe it's the deep-rooted love.
the roots just keep coming out each time i pulled it.
Never-ending.

i wonder when will this stop.

Ignorance is just a bliss.
It's better not to know it.