cut the pretence.

i'm really scared of this world.
it's so creepy.
it's creeping me out.
one problem after another.
i feel crushed.
when will this end?
yes, i'm crying now.
trying very hard to hold tears back.
ohgod, i'm so knocked out.
i'm really trying to forget everything.
but it's really scary.
things are taking a worse turn.
it's just so freaky.
I'm scared. I don't wanna face up to reality.
it's so hard to do that.
just so hard.
will i be able to be as happy and crazy as ever?
what i shared today was true.
101% true.
i'm so stucked yet people are pms-ing.
i'm trying very hard to keep my smile there. To maintain my confidence. Not letting it get crushed.
parents quarrelling,
friends are giving those sort of attitudes.
and that has to happen.
thing that made me freak out today.
i was entirely moodless after that incident.
lost appetite to eat,
lost words to speak.
lost my entire life.
i'm not as strong as you think i am.
i'm breakable.
i'm fragile.
i'm losing my grip and footing.
i'm falling down, sometime soon.

from this instance, i'm gonna cry it all out.
how i wished, you were here.
how i wished, i can cry it all out in your arms.

I need a big FAT hug. from who i hold close to my heart.
you.