my day.

It all started feeling pleasant, pleasing and free. Arrived at school around 7. Early enough to not get mocked by people. Carried two paper bags. Not really big. Normal size. Containing hand-made bouquets. Not really big. But just that everyone gets 2 rocher (sorry to ZIYING, your rocher dropped out. I give you tomorrow!) and a rose. Distributed to some peeps who arrived earlier than me. Hope you didn't see me embarrass myself.
'woah. where you buy one?'
'i made it myself.'
'OMG! damn nice leh.'
thankyou for complimenting. Received gifts from the peeps there too. WEE, ZANN, SHIYING. well, FEBY didn't give it to me cuz chiewling haven't write in the card. They asked me to open up their presents. I didn't want to. Not willing. ZANN really surprised me with the picture in front of her card. WELL DONE, ZANN! :D your card's nice.
WEE wanted me to open up the posters.
'OMG! he's really dammmm leh NANA.' HAHA. i know.
I didn't want to. So embarrassing to let the school know about it. Not as even i'm the only person who likes him. So, that's out of the question.
SHIYING passed me a neatly wrapped present and wished me happy birthday. Thanks!
FEBY wanted to pass hers to me yet CHIEWLING haven't write in the card. Potassium will be JEALOUS! HAHA. :D
MAXINE, YULIN and ZIYING arrived shortly after. Maxine gave me this plain nicely-made box. Pretty! YULIN and ZIYING shared a gift? then they placed their cards for me into the plastic bag and gave it to me. Thanks! The plastic bag was the one i gave YULIN for her birthday. So lame uh! :>
MAXINE came back from locker with some people. (hurhur. some hanky-panky going on?)
'Open my present! NANA!' -smiles.-
-opened as instructed.-
'OMGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!'
yeah, OMG. thanks! It's really cool. Gonna wear it tomorrow! ^^
yeah, guess what? It's the only pair of cool socks! One in the millions.
SAMMI and AVRIL reached a while later. Asked them to choose the bouquets. Asked the others that were mentioned previously to choose too! :D Love it?
Tiffy reached the last and well, she got the last one. Stuffed everything into the plastic bags and went for assembly. GOSHH! I didn't realised that the speaker was HASNAH! o;
Didn't pin up my fringe in the morning. Lucky, i didn't get caught. Phew! MAXINE, your ma damn fierce today.
'today, i'm gonna catch your socks.'
o; i am scared. she better not see this.
Walked pass the podium with my head held high and fringe swept to the side. She didn't catch me. too bad for her. Okay, enough of sacarsm.
Went to class. Holy shit cow man. Math was the first period. ohmytians. Heart was pumping like (o;).
Received my math results. So neh neh. 48/60. Could have gotten a 56 if not for 8marks mistake.
my! goodness. It's a heavy and expensive lesson.
'i cannot afford it.' :D
quoted by sesame. heh.
In the end, it was finalised. Got an A1 for my GFA + Common test result.
Next was the neh neh science. Dead meat. at first.
tay walked down with the papers in register order. As she was nearing, my time in my own world seemed to have paused. Finally, it was my turn. She placed the paper on my table. As time seemed to pause in my own world, i had my sight setted elsewhere. So, i didn't get to see the marks. I flipped the paper to the back while still having my sight elsewhere. Looked from the back to the front. All i can say was, it started to go downhill from the start at the back. Alas, it was to turn to the front cover. o;
I didn't dare to. Yet, i flipped. okay... pleasing. 43.5/50. yeah, 87 almost to 90. yeah! i've done it! while MAXINE's the KIANG one. She topped the class. woo! -claps.-
I was proud of my OTAS. I scored a 19 out of 20. If not for that mcq i changed, i could've gotten full marks. sigh. what's the point of thinking about all these when it doesn't happen to me?
Next, was the disastrous LA. But before that, got a present from precious babe, Elaine! c; thanks! LA was a total disaster. Failed Literature, making me cry in front of friends. Goshh. I bet i look unglam. o:
Failed literature, couldn't get back my 3 points. i knew all hope was lost.
My position gone just because i failed lit. Top 10 was all i wanted. Higher percentage was all i needed. Yet, it's never satisfactory. Regained my mood and went for ICT because of some special people who lit special lights in me. :D Thanks to MAXINE, AHWEN, TIFFY, FEBY, ZIYING, YULIN, SHIYING etc. Shiying provided me with comforting tissues. And caring carebear! :D Thanks! Appreciated deeply! MAXINE AND the rest too! In no order!. Encouraged me, tried to make me laugh. I didn't know why i'll cry. Maybe i haven't failed anything since Sec 1. Before that, i tried to fight back tears. However, it still flowed out.
Went ICT without bringing thumb-drive. Played a game which was at least cool to me - Playing with Fire 2. Play the last stage. Felt much better after all the bombing and escaping.
OHYES! Before all these was the killer mother tongue. Girls didn't do quite well, yet they at least passed! :) Got a 32 out of 50. Damn that bitch.
suckah. Cheater! Not the cheena.
After ICT was grudgy geography. Scored 19.5 out of 30. Aww.
Missed my target. Damn-ed!


Reflections -;
I wonder how people can score 58 out of 60 or even 60 out of 60, yeah, because they got no careless mistakes and i had lots.
I felt discouraged by how people can score like 31 out of 50. And i could even fail it. How i wished that the results were fake. Ya know, birthday fool.
yet, it's reality. Gotta face up to it! Hope i'll score well and do well for the English Paper 1.
Otherwise, i'll be so damn screwed.
Envy people who topped the class. Getting good grades and being happy and not unhappy. Envious of them. Getting high scores and laughing and chatting away happily.
Unlike me, stucked at my seat, emotional.
Is lee baised?

Er. The last is just a question which i ought to look for an answer.


stressed up with these things.
compressed like a compress spring balance.
tightened like a sealed jar.
suffocating like never before.


KOR : eh, happy birthday. -stretches out arm-.
Me : sure?
pause.
Me : sure? Don't squeeze my hand too tight.
-stretched out to shake his hand.
Kor shook gently.
Turned and headed for the kitchen.
Then, he stopped and turned back, looking at me.
KOR : i forgot to tell you, i dug my nose with this (index) finger.

xC aww. crap.


HAHA. He was just kidding only.
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