pouring out.

M&MS ROCK, BY THE WAY!
:D

you're advised not to read it.
it's just me fretting over some things that are definitely not over friendship, family or whatsoever. it's plainly me thinking too much.
please, do not read it, friends.
i'm afraid you will think that i'm insane.
i'm fine. Just typing out what and how i feel. :D

i don't know if there's this bond between us,
it all seems to me that we like the same things.
i love red.
i don't really like blue.
i love flip phones.
not trying to follow what you like.
but i love red is because i don't know why.
i got a shock when you appeared in red.
i love the shirt you wore.
you appeared in it when you're in ___.
i don't really like blue because i think they're plain.
and then, i realised you don't really wear blue shirt.
i had this thought of wanting to buy flip phones.
and i saw that you're using a flip phone.
i'm so confused.
are we really sharing this chemistry, this bond?
sometimes, i'd think to myself.
'will we meet? if so, will you treat me invisible and just walk past me, treating me like any other normal person? Or will you stop and smile?'
i really wished you would stop and smile.
but when i come to think of it, it's not as if i'm the one you're looking for.
when i come to think of it, i would question myself,
'why would you?'
this is so tough.
fretting over who will you be with.
getting upset when you come into close contact with other girls.
jealousy.
the truth is,
i know you'd treat me as any other person.
maybe, sometime, when we meet,
i'd know the answer, the plain truth.