too blessed.

some people are just too blessed to treasure whatever they have.
sometimes, i'm like them too.
but i'm valuing my life now more than any other things.
:D that's good.

i know i still love you when i claim that i don't.
however, will my love me reciprocated?
no. the answer is no.
yep, then why am i still holding onto false hope?
you threw me up like into heaven when you posted on my birthday.
yet, you pushed me down while i was enjoying my time to hell.
maybe it wasn't all your fault.
i'm to blame too.
i was the one who let my thoughts run wild.
to think that you and her are actually together.
but do you think i could help not think this way?
i wished i could.
but.
maybe there isn't anything left for me to hold on to.
except for the memories.
i thank you for them.
stop breaking your own heart and be sure to mend it back.
Protect it too.
Fill it up with love instead of hatred.
argh. how crappy.
that feeling's back yet again.
aww. shucks!
shut up! :

i apologise to Tiffy.
Sorry, i will have to give you your present, late.