What?

I have been so wrong of you.

I thought you were the closest.

I thought i could rely on you.

I was wrong.

You were even more afraid than i am.

I realised then the vulnerability of our relationship.

I dunno if my inference of your statement is true.

Are you more afraid than i am?

Are you afraid of me dragging you down just like the situation i am in now?

Are you so afraid?

Sometimes i wonder what you typed & say to me were true.

I need the truth.

Sometimes i can even feel that you are running & avoiding me.

You broke your promise to me once, twice & thrice.

Even my friends are closer to me then you are.

Am i irritating you?

Am i annoying you?

Am i a pest to you?

If yes,

I will not bug you anymore.

I will not complain.

I feel the distance between us even further & further apart.

If i have a choice,

I would really wish that my bestest best friend can take the place of you in my heart.

Maybe of the different levels,

We are really drifting apart.

You seem like you don't care.

You ignore me & treat me like some toy.

Treat me as you please.

Im not YOUR TOY.

IAMAHUMAN !

Someone that has feelings and not cold-blooded.

If i can,

I really wish that i can tell you straight in the face.

But can i?

I hope that im just over-sensitive about this matter.

I dunwan to cause troubles.

I hate being troubled.

Just because i turn to you,

this doesn't give you the rights to ignore me, hurt me.

You have no rights.

I AM I.

YOU ARE YOU.

this draws a line.

If i am really bothering you,

i promise,

i will Stop.

I will leave you alone.

I tried talking,

& you ignored.

I tried because i dunwan our relationship to fade away like history.

I seriously hope that im being over-sensitive.

Maybe i can sense that my position in your heart is lowering.

I don't care, i just don't want us to be strangers in future.

Oh well,

i've tried & done my best.

If nothing can be done,

I give up.

You may choose to ignore me then.

But by that time,

I will be wondering,

will we meet or even talk to each other?

will we even know that we, each other, exist?

But maybe im wrong,

maybe im just over-sensitive.

i hope so too.